Been a while, hmmmmm?

I’m real busy now-a-days (though I always find time to tweet.) Things didn’t turn out like my grand plan in one of those posts below, something to explain when I’m over it! lol

I last mentioned my brother’s wedding, right? Well that went well – didn’t  twist an ankle in the heels I wore, Shay looked crazy cute in his formal outfit! He was such a handful, and I may of cried about it *shhhhh* but hey!

I think I need to find time to structure my posts properly – time to ressurrect this poor excuse for a blog!!! That includes the other one too – lol.

 

 

p.s. Glad Jordan won Big Brother – I was very happy 🙂

‘Sup?

I’ve finally started to have a more productive life! Yay to me! In the process, I have lost touch with a huge amount of people. I’m working my way up to shorting the distance created – for some it means sucking up and putting aside my pride. What I’m struggling with in this area is just what to say…

I have already sent off all the necessary papers I needed to post. this includes renewal forms for financial stuff (which I sent in late :-s), college/uni applications, subscriptions etc. My mail pile no long exists and I am over the moon because it made my front room look messy and cluttered.

For the past few weeks I’ve really paid attention to organisation: found homes for things that I’ve allowed to just lie around on the coffee table, boxed up important paperwork such as bills in categories and date. I’m trying to encourage Shay to put toys away – I know he’s young but he participates when he sees me picking up his toys and putting the back in the box. I’ve caught him doing it himself which is great. He even applauds himself too! Lol!

I’ve spent a lot of my time writing and studying. Writing down thoughts, listing future goals, even things I wish to say to certain people but refrain from doing so because it’s either bad timing right now, unnecessary yet feel I need to let it out safely or sometimes it goes hand-in-hand with future goals and it’s a reminder of what I want to do. As for the lists, it’s self-explanatory really: What I would like to accomplish, what need to be down (reminders), goals, and even strange things like words to look up, films I want to see, books I want to get my hands on, necessary growth and things to conquer as a person… it goes on.

Studying is in reference to Biblical studies. I’ve been working on self-discipline and it’s something that plays a huge part in my social life. Like everyone else, I have so much to learn and understand so I’m not going to act like I’m the only one BUT I do know myself and so my approach can be a lot more drastic than others. I know if I don’t become strict with myself with this, it’s not going to happen and like many times in the past, my faith fades.

So here’s the thing…

I have to admit, the real obstacle was doing the whole anonymous thing to get away with exposing things – I found it was the real reason to my “phase”.

FYI, it hasn’t been THAT long since I last blogged. I accidentally deleted my blog post while purposely deleting others. If I’m gonna claim this blog openly, not many would “appreciate” how much detail I went into – the truth hurts sometimes AND other times we find some of the ways we reveal things as being very unwise and damaging. I can kinda do without that.

This means personal pics – Yay! Picked a new theme though still dark. May even do what others do and do random posts that are only 3-lines just to keep things active….

Oh and also rambling i.e. Like right now I’m watch Friends re-runs 🙂 Came across on of my fave quote from Joey! Okay, I quickly YouTube-d it:

That’s all for now – gotta sort out my CV 🙂

I Type For Survival

One thing I hate experiencing is the will to pour everything out but no one there to do it with. Or even people there, but which one? How to go about it? Where to start?

So I type to survive this stormy season… I have found no freedom in the talking I’ve done so far. Kinda  why I have shut the world out the last few months. I had one hell of a summer (’08) – events that will  surely be mentioned at some point so prepare yourself.

Christians fool themselves sometimes. We tend to lean on life being all great and full of light all the time. That’s why when I see my friends fall, they fall the hardest! The Bible doesn’t say anything about such guarentee – what it talks about is us being the light to those in darkness, and us seeking the ‘light’ in our situations. I fail all the time with that one. I’m poor in my faith.

It’s why we MUST hang on – for the sake of others too. It’s something I grew up on and see as the most important in life. I can’t sit around and waste life especially when it leaves others in the gutter. I admit, I can’t possibly help everyone – yet the people in my cirlcle of life (yeah – I’m going all Lion King on ya!) are my responsibility in some way. I want to do my best by all of them, regardless of distance between us, level of our relationship and what they believe. So that’s the people I know offline and those I have met online.

So if I have to go to the extreme to get to that place to do so – I’m gonna do it! Even getting there, in itself, will do such works.

So I’m going to type EVERYTHING and Lord help me b/c this is new and challenging for me.

You would think that by the lyrics that this person is a Christian… hmmm – find and read the lyrics for yourself when you have the time.